Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Being tired

I've held Creative Education for 2 beautiful years.
I've given my love and attention to it and cried, laughed, fought, meditated, planned, improvised, shared - I lived it for 2 years.

I chose to leave South Africa at the end of 2011 to generate a greater flow of income that would enable me to ground down into living with Creative Education sustainably. On my return 9 months later, I had accumulated some money, but unfortunately not enough to meet my needs of financial stability to run the project smoothly.

I met with the children and their parents. So much time had passed and with the passage of time, so much in turn had changed, shifted, grown. My conversations with the children have taken on a more inquisitive, curious slant as they express and share their knowledge about sexuality and relationships. It is wonderful!

It has been beautiful and it has also been very challenging. So, after two years, I'm tired, tired of reaching in, pulling in, pulling out, tired of feeling sad and experiencing sensations of being overwhelmed, so I am allowing my project to rest until I can sustain both my Self and my project without effort. It has been a lot to hold.

It was enriching, enlivening, truly beautiful to be part of the children's lifeworld's and to feel the comfort and ease in which we all expressed. Being, just simply being with the children is the essential part of Creative Education. It has been a privilege to be so welcomed, so received and so connected to them.

I will stay in communication with them and when the moment is ready to hold this space again, I will.

Thank you to everyone who supported us throughout the 2 years. Thank you for making my wildest imagination become reality. I am grateful.