What comes next?

So what then?

I'm still on ON mode. Expecting the flow to continue to surge. it's in the trickle parts of the river that I start to question the finer details. The focus blurs and I scramble around looking for the familiar signs that everything is going to be OK. What if the camp doesn't go well? What if I end up doing it all on my own? Will i be able to hold a space with 10 children all on my own?

The gnawing question that remains is, how do I share my heart clearly and openly so that I can continue to build my dream?

What would it take to find the balance between my life service and my well-being?

New Beginnings

It's been a BEAUTIFUL and daring journey this past month. I have been given so much support just at the right time. I was feeling desperate and enormously challenged. Sharing my anxiety with a few friends was just the right medicine!

My two years running the project has offered a great many learning points and I now know that if I want to make it a sustainable initiative, I need to transform CEED into a different form. The essence remains the same but the structure needs a complete overhaul. Hence, I have decided to direct all my attention to transforming CEED into a wilderness awareness/holistic healing learning school. To this end, I have two wonderful friends helping me realise this vision. It has not yet solidified and I am resting in the tall grass waiting for just the right moment to pounce!

My last major event that I held for the children living in Blikkiesdorp was to take them on a camp to Greyton. Effectively, I would like to see CEED grow into that space - where we would be able to do concentrated, intensive, deepening sessions with children living in temporary relocation camps. The 5 children that form the core Creative Collective will act as mentors/ "big sisters and brothers" (as they are fast becoming young teens) and will help facilitate and organise the rest of the camp attendees. I have shared this vision with the children and they are so excited. Their enthusiasm and joy is so much fuel to the passion I have to continue working with and learning from them.

So, whilst I am not working every Saturday with the children, I do see them a few times within the month. They continue to grow in beauty and although they face a lot of very challenging emotions everyday, they are well. We are well.